Crazy

i really don't know what's got into me lately... I've been like so high + crazy + stupid + childish... I've been doing all sorts of crazy-stupid-childish stuff... sometimes i even act worst than a child... i think i might even be making those around me go nuts... haha...

by the way, when i say I'm childish... i don't mean i talk with a very very very slow speed... no... I'm quite talking considerable fast... I'm just kind of doing lots of sot sot stuff which can quite be classified as mad... maybe you would have a fine chance of witnessing some of the things i do at the Tampoi or Woodbridge mental hospital... haha...

mood swings have been real bad lately... i can be real high this minute, jumping and jumping around and doing all sorts of crazy-funny-stupid things, and suddenly so emo in the next...

for example... i n Jia Min did physic presentation on Thursday... about logic gate... i was so damn hyper at that time i was practically jumping all about... well, i wasn't really born to be a teacher... neither did i ever have such an ambition... so as a result to my poor and super fast teaching, nobody quite understood what i was teaching...

Tong and Kok Yuan they all were trying quite hard to listen to my teaching la at the beginning... but then i think they kind of got bored of my jumping around or they already understood through their own studying/tuition or maybe they just gave up with co-operating with me... so they just drifted off into their own discussion while some just slept...

well, i did notice one other pair of eyes watching me quite through out the lesson... but then again, i quite wished that that pair of eyes hadn't been so focused on where i stood... gave me the a bit of pressure and also the urge to smacking him in the face... haha... sorry I'm so not grateful for the attention you've given me in that lesson, though nobody quite gave me much attention that time... for a second i quite wished that you were doing what you normally did in class lo... even if it was snogging, i wouldn't care an inch... at least it would be better than having you quite called staring at me lo...

i think Xin Ping was listening ba... at least... she mostly does... but i wasn't quite giving my attention to beyond the first row of tables la... sorry... her conclusion for nobody able understand my teaching was because of my jumping around... she said maybe that was quite a distraction... haha...

OK OK... enough of those physic lesson... I'm so many stars away out of the topic...

back to my mood swings...

right after physic... i was suddenly so tired lo... felt like sleeping... managed to drag myself back to class... then was BM lesson... don't know y, suddenly feeling so damn emo de lo... i just sat on my chair... doing nothing, thinking nothing... only breaking a few times when teacher told me to do her work... i just left the exercise papers lying on my desk not intending to start doing them... but in the end i still went over Xin Ping that group there to start to copy la... hehe... because teacher suddenly said something about wanting us to pass-up that day... so push myself to do lo...

then, that night at BM tuition... i don't know y... suddenly like got so high lo... doing all the funny funny sot sot stuff... like mad person like that lo... bugged the hell of Michelle... haha...